- H&M apparantly is made to fit abnormally small women, I couldn’t even get a 14 dress zipped up around my rib cage
- any dress that is not skin tight is matronly looking
- everything this holiday season is completely covered in sequins. I am not sequin people.
- I got stuck in the same shirt 5 different times while trying to figure out how it went on.
- I bought a pair of Liquid jeans in dark wash to wear tomorrow night. I have no top to go with.
- I bought a lovely tapestry skirt and a necklace. I have no top to go with.
Category Archives: health
A Step Forward
I’m totally conflicted right now. I’m totally in my groove as far as food and exercise. To be honest, it doesn’t get much tighter or energized or positive than I am right now. And yet? This morning when I stood on the scale, I’m back up to 177 pounds. I was 173 this time last week (and it’s not TOM). The really weird thing is that my waist measurement is back down to 31.5″ which it was when I was at 171 pounds. Now…..don’t go and tell me that I must’ve put on muscle. I probably have, there is no flab left in my legs and my butt is fairly firm. But I did not put on 8 pounds of muscle since the beginning of October. I’m really not sure where to go from here. Obviously I just keep on keeping on….but what do I do with the mental chatter? I’m usually always trying to lose a couple pounds….because even if I don’t lose or don’t have it to lose, the effort of the try means I won’t gain. But I did just gain….but I’m not really noticing the gain. I’m confused.
On to other things. Last night as I was leaving work to head for the gym and Body Combat, I realized that I just didn’t have it in me mentally to race through traffic and arrive at the gym by the skin of my teeth and then do an hour long class of something that I’m not good at. Instead I decided that I would go for a treadmill jog. I needed the easier mental aspect and I figured that I need to still be jogging occassionally so that I’m gearing up for my February Trail Running classes. Last time I jogged I sucked pretty hard at it so this time I decided to find a moderate pace on the treadmill and go for only 30 minutes. However far I made it in 30 minutes would be good enough. And? It was great! I think because I was in a positive mental space and because I didn’t put a tonne of pressure on myself to go a certain distance or a certain speed, I felt great at the end. I ended up jogging for 32 minutes and made it 2.5 miles (4km). I had a 12:00 mile….definitely not my fastest, I used to be able to do a 5k in under 35 minutes and at the rate I was going it would have taken me 40 to do 5k. But that wasn’t the point. I jogged the whole thing, no walking breaks.
Part of me laughed after I was finished. I walked back to the change room past the Combat class that was going on and the first thought in my head was ‘You suck, you copped out and took the easy way out!’. And then I laughed. Jogging for 30 minutes is the easy way? LOL! It was and it wasn’t. It was familiar and I was alone and safe to suck or succeed, whichever it was going to be, but it was different muscles and static cardio which brings about different breathing. I still remember quite vividly that there was a time not so long ago that walking for 30 minutes at a brisk pace without slowing required some serious mental chatter and fortitude. It’s amazing to me how things can change…….I never, ever would have thought a 30 minute jog would be the easiest way out. Never.
I went spinning this morning (even though, after I saw the gain on the scale I wanted to call it off and go back to bed, after all, what’s the point of busting my ass if I’m putting ON weight?) and worked it hard. Tomorrow night is Valerie’s last spinning class. 😦 I like the girl who is taking over Wednesday nights (same girl as Tuesday mornings) so it should be alright…..but I’ll definitely miss my favourite instructor!
Breakfast this morning was a cup of Shredded Wheat w/ Bran and almond milk and a banana. Post spin was protein powder w/ water and a banana. Snack at work was some butternut squash with a hard boiled egg cut up in it and a mandarin orange. Second snack will be an apple and a slice of ham (not processed, the real deal). Lunch is the sweet potato stew (vegan, btw) w/ 2 ounces of cooked ground turkey. Third snack will be another apple w/ another hard boiled egg. And dinner tonight is NY striploin, roasted squash and steamed green beans. That’s a total calorie intake of 1545 (780 from fruit/veg, 610 from protein). And my burn today was 600. HOW AM I GAINING WEIGHT???????
OK, now that I’ve gotten that out of my system.
Have a great day! My love list today is me. I love me. Narcissistic? Perhaps….but shouldn’t we love ourselves? (also I’m lazy and don’t feel like dreaming up a list. 😉
Do you ever look back a month or 6 months or a year and try to remember what was going on or how you were feeling or what you were looking forward to? I came across a very cool website yesterday; www.futureme.org You can write yourself (or anyone) an email that is then delivered anywhere from 30 days to far, far into the future. I wrote myself a one month letter and a one year letter. I think it’s kind of cool. I told Current Me what was going on, how I was feeling and what I hope that Future Me is going to have achieved by the time the email arrives. And the strangest thing happened. What Current Me hopes that Future Me has achieved actually motivated my workout at Body Combat. When I wanted to ease off a little, I thought of reading the email in 30 days and again in a year and having to acknowledge to myself that I didn’t try as hard as I could or do my very best in order to achieve the Future Me goals.
I worked Body Combat as hard as I could last night, Valerie has only one more Body Combat class before she moves away, and to be honest, I really hate that class. I am bad at it, it hurts and I look retarded. And if the new instructor to replace Valerie isn’t fantastic, I think I’m going to have a very hard time showing up to it. I know who they think it’s going to be…and if it is her, then great!
Last night when I got home from Combat, Ray had a roast and brocoli and steamed red potatoes all ready to go. Very nice to come home to! I cleaned up dinner while he went back to bed for night shift tonight. I packed my lunch, packed this morning’s gym bag and then made 4 dozen peanut butter cookies. While the cookies were baking, the fridge got cleaned out and a load of laundry done. Energy definitely does breed more energy!
Last night Ray also happened to inform me that the week before Christmas he’s supposed to be on dayshift. That won’t happen, senior guys to him will be on holidays so he’ll have to go to a different shift. He said he is goint to choose graveyards instead of afternoons. Unfortunately that didn’t make me very happy. My last vacation day of the year is on that first Monday…the day after my birthday. My original plan was to sleep in, get showered or bathed and then crawl back into bed and watch Sex & The City, Gilmore Girls and any other silly girlie show or movie that I feel like while munching on birthday cake. A day of complete luxury. Unfortunately now that’s ruined. If Ray works graveyards, I’ll have to get out of bed by 6:30am and fully showered and hair done so that he can go to sleep for the day. Obviously I don’t want him to work a shift he doesn’t want (afternoons sucks right before a lengthy shut down), but I don’t want my day of sinful laziness to be ruined either. It’s not the same to camp on the sofa and watch movies and it’s certainly not going to be nice to get up at my regular awake time and get ready like any normal day on my last day off. I had this all hammered out in my head and now it’s not going to work out. I’m sadder about it than is fully reasonable. I’m going to have to make an entirely new plan so that my last day off of the year, the day after my birthday, is not just any old day. Gr.
Love List ~ November 22, 2011
- early morning spinning and a hot shower
- tangerine flavoured lip gloss
- juicy kiwi (eaten with the skin ON!)
Saturday Evening Post (get it? haha)
Oh, Saturday evening, how I love thee. I get to sleep in tomorrow morning as per our household ‘rule’ and I don’t have to go to the gym in the morning so that means I get to drink me some wine. Yep, loving Saturday evening!
I went spinning this morning, out into the very frosty cold morning to get my sweat on. I hadn’t eaten that much yesterday (after I chucked my original lunch due to sodium and had a very light dinner for the same reason) and I really noticed that I ran out of steam mid class. But I pushed through and finished with power. One thing I did notice this morning during spinning was that when the sweat was dripping off me it was cloudy. I also noticed that it was so salty/acidic that it was burning my skin. Obviously an imbalance in here somewhere. I have managed to lose 3.5 of my gained horror pounds since I’ve been being conscientious about sodium and flushing with water so I think I’m on the right track.
My mom, sister and I went on an outing today. After spinning I drove to my sister’s house and we all went out to a pottery painting shop. My sister is very creative, my mom and I are not. I’ll leave it at that. We have before pictures of the items that we painted and when the finished product comes back later this week I’ll post the before and after pictures. Lunch was sushi….aaaand because of my electrolyte issues, I had one roll and then 8 pieces of sashimi (raw salmon and tuna) and very minimal soy sauce. Lots of green tea and good chats, very nice time. After a trip to a yarn store and a visit with sister’s friend at her art studio and our day was over.
When I got home I changed clothes and Ray and I walked over to do our civic duty and vote in our community. Then we walked a couple of kilometers to the liquor store for a bottle of wine. Upon arriving at the little mall where our neighborhood liquor store is, we came upon a young man being robbed/assaulted by another young man. (by young man I mean possible gang members/drug dealers/drug users) We bypassed that ruckus, told the liquor store staff to call the police and by the time we went to the till to pay, the one guy was pacing around in the store and the other guy was pacing outside of the store. Idiots. We live in a really nice neighborhood and these were very yuppy gang wannabee, didn’t get enough cash from mom and dad to pay for my pot debt sorts.
Dinner was stew and a crusty bun, John Wayne is on the TV right now and my book and blanket are calling.
Regarding yesterday’s post about something to work toward, Tarable suggested the Grouse Grind and I think that’s a damn great idea. My current plan is to do it alone, I want Ray at the top waiting for me (he has no interest in doing it) with a cold beer and a juicy hamburger. I’m going to wait for a nice spring day (not too hot) and give it a go. Before Tara made the suggestion though, I did find something that I am interested in and have now already paid for. It’s a trail running series through Kintec (a technical shoe company). It’s a 12 week program starting at the beginning of February that runs the trails of Port Moody…and at the end of 12 weeks you are conditioned to run a trail half-marathon. As I understand it, there is no actual half marathon to complete at the end (not an organized race) but there are lots of them up in North Van over the season that you can sign up for. Trail running is different than road racing which I have no interest in anymore. For $119.95 you get the 12 week program…but you also get a pair of running shoes (more than likely a trail pair ) for free. The shoes are around $120-140 so it’s a pretty decent deal! The program gives you a technical class at the beginning of each get together and then you do a group training run. I’ve never done a running group before but I’m up for it, group exercise is a big part of my life right now. You have to be able to do a 5k pretty easily before this starts so I’m going to have to ease into some running over the winter (treadmill) to get my running legs back. But……I got what I was looking for, something to train for, look forward to and get up for. Grouse and Poco Trails. BRING. IT.
Happy Saturday Evening, I’m off to the sofa! (a picture of a small portion of the grind below and a picture of the adorable hat that my sister made and then graciously gave to me. It’s a kitten hat. Teehee)