It’s Week Two, Day 10 of my no alcohol-no sugar-no junk food-go to the gym reset. As with all logical, grounded, centered women, I now feel, having made it through the last 10 days successfully, that I should be down 9 pounds and ready to run a 10K. What? No? It doesn’t work that way? Why is it that when it’s a matter of drinking and eating crap and not exercising that the days blend easily into weeks and into months, but when you’re cleaning up your act and making the right decisions that every day is elongated and accentuated and 10 days feels like 100?
Anyway, I have made it through 10 days successfully with no alcohol and only veggies, protein, fat and some fruit. I’ve also been to the gym four times, one of which was a 6am spinning class yesterday morning. And while I suspect I have not lost 9 pounds (I wouldn’t know since I don’t weigh but it seems incredibly unlikely), I do feel So Much Better than I did at the start. I feel more centered and stable and in control. Amazing what food & some exercise can do, hey? So, onward I go, not with any parade or fireworks, just plugging away day after day because this is the right thing to do. And, in a month or two, when I feel like I’m fully reset…..I am REALLY going to enjoy a glass of wine!
On the home front, Ray still hasn’t found a new job…..which is a bit startling to us since we really felt he wouldn’t have any issues doing so. I suspect his resume touting his 36+ years of experience are perhaps a bit off-putting to potential employers as it is a sneak peek at his “nearing retirement” age. We may need to get after re-wording that portion of his resume! He’s doing alright though and contemplating just putting a stop to it all and entering official retirement. We have a lovely, large basement suite that we can consider renting out to the right person and that would be a great additional income as well. Unfortunately he hasn’t really gotten over the fact that, since our relationship developed, we’ve both had our “chores” and he does his stuff and I do my stuff…….but that was arranged back when we both had full time jobs. Now I’m the only one working and he’s still only doing “his chores” and leaving me to do the rest. He has a terrible habit of saying “I wanted to wait for you so that we could do it/go together.”….which in any other time would be sweet, but we don’t need to put the garbage out together or unload the dishwasher together or go and fill a propane tank together. YOU go do it while I’m at work and then our “together” time can be something enjoyable! It’s a learning process.
As for me, I’m still absolutely solid in my work hours, 7:30 – 3:30 with a full 30 minute lunch break (that sometimes stretches into 40 when Tara and I get chatting). My stress level has gone down significantly at work…..possibly because I have no commitment anymore to a business that is dissolving……but also because I refuse to answer my work phone or email after 5pm. Since the only manager that we have left saw fit to leave me here in charge of everything for over two weeks, I’ve decided that if he’s not that worried then neither am I! It’s a very weird position for me to be in. I’m a do-er, I like control and results and I’ve had to step back and just let things fall where they may because this was not my decision and there are people much more highly paid than I am who are responsible for making decisions and driving this change……this is not my issue.
Anyway, that’s it on my front. Day 10 of Forever.