I wrote my theory exam last night and upon handing it in felt a weight lift off my shoulders. I’d either pass or fail, after writing, reviewing and handing it in, there was nothing more I could do. Pass or fail.
I woke to a very happy email this morning that said I’d successfully completed the theory portion of the program and can now move on to the practical! I am so relieved that this portion is over! I have six months to get the theory part scheduled and taken, it’s a 45 minute review and I have no issues with it. I’m very familiar with the gym, equipment, weights and general fitness so it should be no problem. However, I am taking a stress-break right now. My personal care, fitness and life enjoyment took a back seat over the last month and a half (stress, I hate you!) and I’m going to spend the next few weeks putting things back together.
I’m nearly criminal when it comes to procrastinating and then having things to do looming over me increases whatever stress I’m already feeling. It’s not pretty. For instance I received my T4 to file my income taxes about two months ago. The cut off is in 6 days. Every night I would go to bed thinking “Shit, I have to do my taxes” which was combined with “Shit, I need to spend more time studying” sprinkled with a bit of “Shit, I need to get an appointment to fix my demolition buggy”. OK…my Jetta….but it’s seriously turning into a demolition buggy! So imagine how toxic my wellbeing was feeling with those three big things plus the regularly HUGE list of ordinary stuff that needs to get done. Not ideal. Makes me exhausted and chubby and crabby. And yes, stress DOES make you chubby, especially around the mid section. FFS.
So, Wednesday I filed my taxes ($15 refund, thanks very much!), last night I wrote and passed my exam and this morning I left a message for the body shop to call me back for an appt. My three stress causers are done. PHEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!
Do I believe that I’ve learned a lesson about my chronic procrastinating? Nope. I really don’t. It’s how I am. I try to recognize and revise it but so far that hasn’t really worked. But for now, my stressors are over, my mind and heart are feeling light and free and I’m going to embrace it….as odd as it feels.
Thank you SO much to the friends online and in real life who have been so supportive and encouraging, it means the world to me. You know who you are!