It’s sitting there, waiting for me. Tomorrow is my first day back at the gym and I could not be more excited about it! Don’t get me wrong, it’s going to be a bit different than what I was used to a month ago but I don’t care.
I have a sneaking suspicion that tonight is going to be the first night that I get a proper sleep and there will be my alarm clock blaring away at 4:30am! I’m all good though, I have my gym clothes laid out for me and my Shuffle all charged up.
It’s funny though, I feel like I’m going to the gym for a different reason than I was a month ago. Sure, I want to gain muscle to lose excess fat and we all want to be slim, skinny, thinner all the time. But I feel like now I’m going because my body and the muscle that I did have built up and the core strength that I have been working on all have contributed to the packed gym bag in the picture up above. Some chic crashed into my car and for the speed of the impact and the damage to the cars and my body, I could be in a lot worse shape than I am. I think back to if this happened when I was pushing 270 pounds and how maxed my body already was, taking a hit like that and stress like this would have been horrible. Not that this hasn’t been bad, but I picture it all on my 270 pound, pack a day smoker, unfit self and I cringe! So now I’m going to the gym to help repair my body and strengthen my system. It feels different somehow.
Anyway, enough about that. There’s going to be a bunch of stuff still to come, chiro, massage, physio, insurance company settlement etc. There’s still pain and lack of sleep but I’m drawing my line under this last month and choosing to move forward. If a person is not to get stuck, forever mired into their sadness and stress and pain, they have to pick a point, draw a line and choose to move forward. I have seen too many times, people have an incident or a series of them and never get over it. I figure, instead of being defined by trauma or pain or weakness choose to be defined by your fighting spirit, your will to forge ahead and your strength to stand tall. And then buy gorgeous jewellry to represent it all! (yes, Noelle, I exerpted my own email that I sent to you this afternoon…..it said what I needed it to say………I’m a dork!)
Noelle Munoz is the jeweler and it’s definitely a worthwhile click to go and see her offerings! All of her original designs are gorgeous (and I would really love some special spouse to buy me the “Rivers” ring), but I saw “Leaf” on another blog late last week and I knew I had to have it. Leaves and trees are amazing symbols of fresh starts and new life and perseverance (I think so, anyway) and this piece is so unique and beautiful that I chose to buy it as a symbol of this and every other “line” I’ll ever have to draw under things in order to always keep moving forward. Go and visit her website, she has some beautiful stuff!
I’m headed for bed shortly, 4:30am comes very early……….and I’m so, SO GRATEFUL that I am in the position to be able to whine about getting up at o’dark-thirty and going to the gym!
I’ll leave you with a picture of the new car (2012 Volkswagen Jetta) and of a certain blanket thief that I babysat for a few days.